I am rested. I want to write. I need to write…I am ready to write…but my heart is broken. My spirits crushed and my whole being is aching from the loss of my dear wife. It has been a week and my head still has not been able to comprehend the loss of someone who has been a part of me…has been within me…all those years. I sit by her grave and say no prayers…no duas…just play within my head the times we have been together….and think of our life together…over and over again….and feel within my heart, the happiness, the love and the pain of being apart in a life well lived together. And in all this, I am thankful for the presence of my son beside me and the comfort that I have in knowing that my daughter too, is with us in our grief.
To all of you who have also been with us in our loss and our grief…may we say thank you. I know I have many friends out there and I will never doubt that I do have friends out there, ever again. All that I needed…be it in kind, in sympathy and empathy I more than received from you guys. Terima kasih.
And now there is unfinished business to attend to. I ask for time to come up to speed…time to get back into the “loop” of things happening since I stopped to grieve and time to understand what it is that is happening in the world out there…for I do understand that the world did not stop when you lose a love one. Such is life.