This morning, a few minutes ago, a friend asked, “N you..how r u this morning?”
How many times in your life, have you been asked that? And how many times, when you have been asked that, how many times have you wished that you could have answered that as truthfully as you have wished to do? Let me share with you my answer this morning to that question from that dear friend of mine.
“Trying to decide the direction of my life….what is left of it. I want to be content with what I have….and I want to be happy” that was my answer. If I do not live to see another day, I want my last conscious thoughts to be that I have no regrets left in my life. That all that I could possibly do for myself and for others, I have done. That all that I have wished I have said, I have said. And that all that is left for me to do now is to go quietly and know that all that I have thought of life, of myself and all those that I have loved and held dear to me, have, to a large extent, and to my satisfaction, been true and right.
What are the things that I think must be true? There has to be a God – but that God is a natural force to be respected, much more than merely mouthing supplication, in order for all to be well (and I am quoting Ismail Yusof here).
And what do I think is right? All my life I have done things as I please. In the end, the things that really matter to me have come to me. That I had a wonderful and happy life with my wife. That I have two wonderful children whom I love and they have also love me back in equal measures. And now in my 70’s I am content and happy where I am – in Melbourne, with the means to keep body and soul together and content with what I have. And what of the future?
Whatever is left of my future I will want to spend the same way as I have lived my life in the past. Be happy, be content, and have people that I care and love for, with me. Around me. Enough said. Kan?